I can’t decide whether the beginning of January this year has flown by or dragged. I mean, I cannot believe it is nearly February already, but by the same token Christmas feels like it was a million years ago. That being said I am not shedding a tear about January almost being over, it is by far my least favourite month of the year. One where you go to work and return in the dark, where you have next to no money after spending it all at Christmas, and on the couple of days that you do have off on the weekend, you have no idea what to do with yourself because the weather is so miserable. It has to be said that in January I do go slightly stir crazy! All of the New Year’s resolutions you set yourself go completely down the drain, one of the reasons why I tend not to set them, and I must admit, my resolution to begin running isn’t off to flying start…(excuse the pun). I don’t think I will be the next Mo Farah anytime soon. Quelle Horreur!
Anyway, with that little rant over, sixth form has started again. The first week was filled with mocks, which most people detest, but personally, I have always secretly liked exams. Not particularly the exam itself, but I love the feeling you get when you are in an exam, you read the questions and you get that lightbulb moment, and you realise that all the revision and work you have put in throughout the year has actually paid off. This year mocks were tough, but they were always going to be at A-level. I am pretty proud of myself though, as I didn’t let the stress get to me before or during the exams, and I was able to keep my cool and get through them and get some pretty good marks if I do say so myself.
Now with mocks over, we look forward to the end of year and AS examinations. Whoopi doo! I swear this past year has felt like a really long hike, where once you finally reach the top of one mountain, you can immediately see the next one in the distance. After weeks of stressing, I have made the decision to do Business for an AS level. Actually it’s a bit of a weight off my shoulders, as it has been rolling around in my head for ages. Four months is what I keep reminding myself, four months until I sit the exam and I finally get to drop it and focus on my main three subjects, in which I have some much-needed statistics revision to do!
But enough with college, the play I’m in is slowly creeping forward, but I have to say, I am not too worried. I really thought I would be, but because I am confident with my lines and positionings, I am able to just relax and enjoy the rehearsals. I finally tried on my baby bump for the play, which felt very odd! I think my mum nearly had a heart attack! I am continuing with all of my other commitments, including volunteering, yoga and singing, which have all been going really well.
January this year has made me realise many things about myself though, the main one being that I cannot stay inside or just be at home for long periods of time. This is the complete opposite to when I was younger, where I could have quite happily spent my entire weekend lounging on the sofa whilst binge watching the Lord of the Rings trilogy back-to-back. But now, if I spend too much time just sitting about not doing anything, I start to go a bit crazy. This is one of the reasons that I am so glad I signed up to this play, and go to my volunteering every Saturday morning, because even though sometimes it can feel like a big effort, it feels so good after I’ve been. I’ve started to realise how important it is as a human to just do stuff. I know that sounds a bit odd, but it is true. Going out and socialising, moving your body, and not just sitting at home glued to your phone is so important. So now, even if at that moment in time I don’t want to go out to see my friends or go on a walk, I go, because I realise how miserable I can get if I don’t, and how isolated I can feel. You can really start to overthink things if you spend too much time alone, and you can begin to lose touch with reality, so it is important to have these outlets to just come back down to earth.
End of Viv’s life lesson